Letting God Take Control

I had an entirely different blogpost planned out for this week, but God has been pressing this matter on my heart so heavily that it's all I can think about.

Nobody enjoys feeling like their life is out of their control. This week, I've been struggling with my own desires vs. God's desires vs. my parent's desires for me. I can have my own plans and my parents can have their plans for me, but what does that matter if they aren't God's plans? I have tried so hard to build myself up as an independent woman. But I'm not and will never be. I am desperately and utterly dependent on God. That is the greatest comfort I can have.

What would become of my life if I was in control? How high of a pile of dung would I be in if God didn't have His hand in my life? I can't even decide my coffee order without stressing out. How could I then decide such great life decisions on my own? As much as I want to drive myself around this twisty road called life, I need to constantly surrender myself to Him, & let Jesus take the wheel.

I know that God's plans for me are the best plans. How could I possibly think that my plans would be better than His? The creator of the universe, the designer of our souls. But I often get anxious with the fear that the things that I want for my life are not what He wants for me. I am afraid that His timing is a lot different from mine and I will have to wait for the things that I want to happen. If His plans are the best and waiting is a part of those plans, then obviously great things will come from that. But waiting sucks! It sucks coming so close to something to have it taken away from you. But there is peace that comes with that. There is comfort in knowing that God is in control. He will always be. The only thing left for me to do is surrender.

Let go & let God.

"22 And he said to his disciples, “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat, nor about your body, what you will put on. 23 For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. 24 Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds! 25 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 26 If then you are not able to do as small a thing as that, why are you anxious about the rest?27 Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 28 But if God so clothes the grass, which is alive in the field today, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! 29 And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried. 30 For all the nations of the world seek after these things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31 Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you."

Luke 12: 22-31 (ESV)

Songs to help you let God take control of your life again:

Captain by Hillsong United

Have it All by Bethel Music

Here Now (Madness) by Hillsong United

It Is Well by Bethel Music

Psalm 46 by Shane & Shane

I Will Follow by Vertical Worship

The Stand by Hillsong United